Thanks for the kind words, I do appreciate it!
I know I'm neurotic... why else would I spend so many hours tweaking videos before publishing them? Fretting over individual frames and stuff.
Yes, it's one heck of an outlet, but I still find myself censoring myself [mostly word choices - not expletives, but could be offensive] It's an internal struggle because my native language is foul and abrasive at times.
Worthiness issues can cause one to reach great heights, or completely implode. I am more the latter. On a side note, I haven't recorded anything in WEEKS due to a lot of mental stress and issues, which are rooted in this.
If you want to write books, I say GO FOR IT! I love writing, and it's so much easier for me to write than speak. If traditional blogs were still popular, I'd probably be doing that, but you're right - people want short videos with bright colors and fast talking.
-John