Strangely,
off the bike I feel the most anxiety about riding.
When on, I have no fears. I just have plans and techniques and psychic predictions, based on decades of driving in a big city, as to what other vehicles are going to do.
To be honest, with all that focus I don't have time to be afraid. Concerns as things develop, yes. And then I start thinking of what to do, where I want to be.
Off the bike I sometimes worry about my passenger.
On the way home Friday night, with her on the back, a SUV thing started to pull out left in front of us, inviting a head on collision...
I saw this coming. I had already started to slow down even though I was moving toward a green light.
3 seconds earlier: Approaching the intersection with us there was a SUV in front of me that I figured was blocking the on-coming left turner's view of the bike. When we get close to the intersection the SUV in front of me moves into our left-turn lane and the oncoming SUV sees an opportunity and starts to turn left, as I predicted it might. No fears. Everything is happening exactly as I have foreseen. I'm already pushing on the right, countermeasures in play...
I have read about something called Motion Camouflage:
http://www.st1300.us.com/showthread.php?t=1266 (one example plus some other good points to keep in mind)
and zig-zagged once or twice while slowing within my lane. I also already had plans should they not stop, if I could not stop.
However as soon as I did that, the SUV literally locked-up the brakes and stayed in the left turn lane as we rode by.
I've done this many times before and it's always worked. I didn't think twice about it. That was already in the programing and I just did it.
Later I did think about it and realized that if I had done something incorrectly, she could have been seriously injured.
I don't know. Maybe it's just the thread subject plus what happened tonight.
Maybe it's nothing.