Bummer Thread - Just Need To Vent

[SalvageSV]

So guys, this is a bummer thread, but I need to put something out there and have some discussion with people who aren't depending on me or that I need to keep a strong facade up for.

The last few months have been really shitty for me ...

In mid March I lost my job of 8+ years. I'm not going to get in to that too much becasue I'm sure my boss has her opinions. We disagreed and I got canned.

I've been living off of savings for nearly 3 months at this point and am at the point where I can't make my mortgage next month. I've got a wife and two kids that I have to provide for and not being able to really sucks. I'll probably be selling my Evo to cover bills soon.

I had a great lead on a job in Atlanta. I did 5 interviews and made two trips over there to meet people. It was to the point where they'd even sent me benefits info so I could be ready to accept the job ASAP. Then, at the last minute they change their mind on what they really valued for the position and another candidate got the offer.

That job opportunity drug on for 5 weeks, and becasue I pursued it for so long I missed out on another opportunity and delayed another that I could have been working that entire time.

Then, come to find out the company I was fired from has just won 5 different awards for my work. It will look good on a resume I guess, but it's just shitty to think how my boss will display those awards proudly and use it to talk up the awesome work her group does when they were all completely my doing. They were awards for video work and the projects, from conception to production to post were all done by me. It's just kind of a twist of the knife in my back.

And now, on top of all that, my dad passed away yesterday. It wasn't unexpected, but it's just another things that's turning my life upside down. I'm terrible at dealing with death ... I just don't know how to feel those emotions I guess. So I've been working on repairing his old guitar that I've had for a few weeks. IT's kinda nice to work on and keep my mind off things I guess.

On the lighter side my wife had an interview on Friday that seemed to go well and we are waiting to hear back on that. I've got some contract work lined up but it doesn't pay as well as I really need it to. I've got a lead on another opportunity in Atlanta and maybe it'll work out this time.

I know things will turn around, but for now I'm on the edge of some really shitty depression and I'm barely towing the line on the edge of just breaking down. I just keep telling myself that things will get better and I keep working on new job opportunities.

So, if you read all of this, thanks. If you have a comment, feel free to share it. Like I said, I just needed to get this all out in a place where I don't feel like I'm letting people down.

 

[DDR]

While almost everything could be said as trials of life, that part about taking credit for the work they didn't do pisses me off the most. Relates to me a lot since this kind of thing is VERY widespread where I live, everyone just behave like crabs trying to escape a bucket.

Condolences about your dad's passing though, I'd definitely understand wanting to work on something and get our hands moving to ignore, or rather, not let the negative emotions kill us.

Definitely a hard topic, but thanks alot for sharing

 

[RoadSprock]

It's a hard topic to comment on, but things will get better just keep trying all avenues and condolences for your loss.

 

[SalvageSV]

Thanks guys.

 

[RoadSprock]

Thanks guys.

Just keep yourself busy man!

 

[BurntRuber]

No don't sell that sexy ass car. Well if you really want to my buddy was looking at getting one. What do you do for work I might be able to help you find something down here in fl it might be far but a job is a job. I deal with death very different then most but I'm sorry about your dad man. I usually go ride to clear my head.

 

[SalvageSV]

No don't sell that sexy ass car. Well if you really want to my buddy was looking at getting one. What do you do for work I might be able to help you find something down here in fl it might be far but a job is a job. I deal with death very different then most but I'm sorry about your dad man. I usually go ride to clear my head.

I mainly do video production work. But I also do communications counsel, brand strategy, project management, etc.

 

[BurntRuber]

I'll ask around for you see if I come up with anything.

 

[CodeNameAB]

Feel very sorry for your loss. It must've been so hard for you to type all this, but all I can say is keep trying and never give up. Just remember, most of the highly successful people had one of the toughest journeys to reach there!

I find these lines from the movie Rocky helpful in tough times,

The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place and I don't care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard you are hit. It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done!